My husband Jose died at home on February 1, 2024. His transition to death was just like how he lived, sweet and tender. One day in September 2024 there was something I wanted to tell him and I stopped myself thinking “Oh wait, I can’t because he is not here”. Then I realized that I could tell him, because he is here. I document what I want to tell him so I don’t forget these moments of noticing, remembering and connecting. The Trail Magic page is devoted to appreciation of those folks along the way who have offered moments of generosity, inspiration or unexpected wonder.
We experienced a great deal of trauma within the U.S. healthcare system.
Grief and trauma are not the same thing.
Trauma is dehumanizing and immobilizing.
Grief is humanizing and healing.
Trauma isolates me from myself and separates me from others.
Grief creates intimacy — with myself and with others.
I want to release the veil of trauma and hold sorrow close to my heart.
These writings bring me to that place of aliveness and intimacy cultivated through grief.
I Want to Tell You 